I dont wanna be learned and I dont wanna be tamed

she'll leave soon.

getting old is not for pussies

I sing ya songs I dance a dance
I gave ya friends all a chance
Putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
And maybe you been through this before
But its my first time
So please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool
I keep playing your part
But its not my scene
Wont this plot not twist?
I've had enough mystery.
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
Well im already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting

Well if I was in your position
Id put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

i miss her

because I worry about you when you're away.

test results aren't back yet.
and I miss her a lot today.
back to bed, for me.

one of the most difficult things I've ever had to learn is that I am not, in fact, immortal... nor invicible.


hmmm.

Ok so pretty much anyone who has any sort of weird problem with me in any way has found some way to make my day that much more stressful and hard.

seriously?!



and I say again...


SERIOUSLY?

get the fuck outta here with that dumb shit.

sigh.






represent

I wanted to be the one she calls on her cigarette breaks
not the cause of them.






finally over in my mind.
finally.

Im about to finish all my credit hours for my ba in liberal arts, minus what I need for my degree.



three things Im sure of today:
- Im stronger than I thought
- people will always talk and try to sabotage things, it's important that you surround yourself with people you can trust and who trust you. anything else will drive you insane/drive a wedge between people.
- every little thing, is gonna be alright.


the past month has been bullshit. literally everything that people have felt the need to tell my ex girlfriend is completely untrue and FABRICATED even. I don't even know where people come up with this shit. and vice versa, people make up shit to piss me off. Im just so fucking sick of it, I've told everyone I know to stop running their mouths, and yet... it never stops. meh. I'm just so over it. It's honestly the dumbest most childish shit I've ever had to deal with.

so seriously, shut the fuck up. find something better to do. because it's done.

I need to motivate to do this paper but I really can't fucking think.

keep on.
keep on breathing.

The day after my birthday (May 28th) or in 6 days, Lacey and I are going on the master cleanse.

This is Why

Pretty much the master cleanse is this fast that consists of lemonade, water, and laxative teas which may not sound so appealing to most people, but long term the effects are supposed to be incredible.
I will at least be fasting for 10 days but you can safely fast up to 40 with the master cleanse, and we're trying to beat Lacey's record of 23 days. So we'll see. I'm pretty excited and it works because I can't drink alcohol while Im on it or even juice so I'm going to THROW DOWN for my birthday this year.

After I get my body reset and cleansed then I will make my decision on veganism and my eating habits.

So anyway the point of this whole post was to say that

I'm not eating for 10 days at least, possibly 40, so buy me dinner for my birthday

and if you're interested in reading the book on it the original text is here

The Master Cleanser by Stanley Burroughs

So my bestfriend almost has me convinced that I should go vegan.

what are your thoughts?
(not yours, Lacey, haha)


I can't really afford to have to buy a lot of different and expensive stuff. but obviously the health reasons are why I would even consider this.
I just feel fat and lazy all the time and there just has to be a better way.
also, changing my diet gives me something to be neurotic and picky about and trust me I need that outlet.

FUCK DUDES

oh my god.





hi?

my old myspace was hacked like months ago, by the way.

the new one is myspace.com/scandalousmiss








Ill be at planet of the drums tomorrow night for my birthday.

Buy me drinks.